The Return of Cece Lou!

Cece Lou (daughter) is back from visiting her grandparents for 6 days. It was nice to have a break, but I've come to realize that now that I have her being such a huge part of my day and routine, there's no turning back. I had so much free time on my hands when she was gone that I seriously started to feel sad, so instead of using my time wisely to get a lot of writing and work done, I ended up sleeping or watching movies. It was nice to have time for those things too, but that's not what makes me feel good and energized. Sitting around is pretty boring to me most of the time. I feel my best when my day is packed with a routine of go-go-go, so when I go to bed I'm exhausted from work instead of being exhausted from doing nothing. So as much as I feel run-down each day and I struggle to find time for me, it's crazy, but it's actually what works best for me. Sure, I enjoyed going to a coffee shop and writing, but I just don't need it anymore. I can find pockets of serenity right here amidst dirty diapers and meltdowns. Maybe it has something to do with feeling needed by a child and the satisfaction of seeing your hard work pay off as she grows. Maybe I missed that when she was gone. Who knows. All I know is I'm glad she's back home and I'm forced to once again use my time wisely instead of crapping it away by napping and watching Judge Mathis.
I think I'm 18 weeks pregnant today (I'm so bad at keeping track!) and I'm feeling worlds better than I have in a long time! Cece's sleeping now, and normally I would be curled up in a fetal position sleeping, but I finally have enough energy to work through her naps and get stuff done.